Why can't I sleep? 🌛💤

Imagine that, It's 3 am and I can't sleep. Too many thoughts running through my head. The number one thought, "I'm gonna be 40 in 7 days". For the most part it doesn't bother me, because hey it's just a number. Then the writers block kicks in and I can't figure out to go with this. Maybe it's because I'm tired, but can't sleep. I dunno. Why can't I sleep? I dunno that either. What I do know is that the last week and a half has been a battle with anxiety and panic attacks. I refuse to let them win. Oh, and I love snow, but I'd like it to chillax for a bit so I can spend some much needed quality time with my bestie. I miss getting to hang out with her. Well, it's now 4 am and I am still awake 😕 Sleep would be awesome. I guess I should lay down and see if I can fall asleep. Good Night 🌛 and Sweet Dreams Y'all  😴

Randomness for Christmas

Merry Christmas!! On my way to a farm in the middle of nowhere Iowa to hang with family and brand new baby kitties. I love kitties. My cousins are supposed to be there too.

Santa treated me well this year. 2 puzzles, 2 DVD's, a sweater, a purse, fuzzy socks, and Taylor Swift 1989. Thanks Santa!! Christmas rocks!!

So far my new job is going well. I work 3 days next week and then I have another 4 day weekend. My birthday is exactly one month from today. WooHoo!! Have a great day everybody. Find a kitty to snuggle, it'll make you feel happy :)

Random Thoughts 2014

I really need to update this thing more often. Where do I begin? I guess I'll start with the sad and work my way to the happy stuff. First off, My Uncle Jim lost his battle with cancer on November 8th. The last couple weeks have been rough.

Before that I ended my job and had to say good bye to friends I probably won't ever see again. I hate saying good bye. One of those friends was a guy. On my last day he gave me his number, twitter, and e-mail. That made me feel so happy, because I could still say Hi and see how things were going whenever I wanted. Now I can't get him to talk to me. Only thing I haven't done is call him, but I am way too chicken to do that. Maybe I'm scared he won't answer, just ignore me like most people.  I just hope I haven't scared him away. In no way am I normal, but I'm definitely harmless. Just a girl wishing for a friend. I don't mean to be annoying,  but I know I can be. I hope he reads this. It really is killing me that he won't talk to me. I'd feel much better if he would just talk to me. 

I am enjoying my new job. I work for an Optometrist as an Insurance Clerk. I hope I'm there for a long time. Well, guess it's time to end this for now. I'll try to update this more often. Bye for now. 

Here we go again

Well, it's the beginning of another week. Boooo...... not having a job sucks. I hate hearing people complain that they don't make enough money. At least they have a job. People that have 2 jobs irritate me. There's not enough jobs for everyone to have 1 job. Those people with 2 jobs contribute to the problem. It's no wonder there's a high unemployment problem. All I want is a job, but no one will give me a chance. They would rather hire a pot head or a drunk that only shows up half the time and when they do show up they only half ass their job. Why are people so stupid?

I've got a college degree and still can't get hired. Even the college I went to won't hire me which is sad. It's really frustrating. Won't somebody please hire me?

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Blah Blah Blah

I sat through the most boring shpeel about water softners last night. It took 3 freakin hours. All because I signed up to win an Ipod. Right now I'm totally fine not winning. This company called because I entered, and then didn't want to talk to me. Just because I don't own the stinking house.

That is really an uncool way to treat your potential customers. Pisses me off that companies do that. Grrrr. You know what, they can keep their stinkin Ipod, cuz I don't want it. Dirty bastards, screw them.

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Grandma's House

About this time of year I really start missing my grandma. She was the most awesome grandma ever. When we were kids she would play kick ball or wiffle ball with us. She was always the pitcher. Grandma was tons of fun. I used to spend a week almost every summer with her. That was so awesome. I got to hang out with grandma and do whatever I wanted. She totally spoiled me.

Grandpa was there too, but he didn't play with us. I helped take care of him while I was there. He was diabetic. Grandpa had to do insulin shots. I used to say,"It's time to shoot yourself Grandpa". He would laugh and do his shot. I love finding stuff that used to be Grandmas. Her house just had that unique smell. I can't describe it. It's just one of those things that brings back lots of great memories. I miss that house.

I caught grandma toasting marshmallows over the burner on the gas stove once. That was awesome. Grandma was a tough old bird. She totaled the car once. Played chicken with a combine. The combine won. Grandpa hit her with the car once. Just skinned the knees and hands.

Grandma is in heaven now. I really miss her. She was a great person. Didn't know a stranger, and was super proud of her kids and grand kids. I think about her a lot, especially around Christmas. Grandmas birthday was Christmas Day. It was always,"Merry Christmas, Happy Birthday". Well, I hope she is enjoying heaven, and knows we miss her a whole bunch. I love you Grandma.

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Tipsy Randomness

Tonight I had a little too much wine. I was super happy tho. The buzz has worn off now, which is really disappointing. It was an awesome buzz. Now I'm tired, but I think I'm fighting sleep a little. I hope the wine doesn't come back to haunt me in the morning. I'm gonna see if I can get some sleep. Later Dudes.

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